First year of teaching…. thoughts, queries, freaking out, getting out of my own head!

So, I never do this and nobody may ever read this. But I am in my first year of teaching and lets say first of. I am a theater teacher. I have wanted to be one for so long. I have gone to school for past high school three degrees and may even go back in the future, cause I love to learn. However so much school and my history of being in special education has made me see view success and failure in very even terms. I have always been a perfectionist ever since I was in special education, I need everything to be prefect that i could control like english, social studies and all my other subjects. Because my performance in math was out of my hands and i never found success in it. Since then, I have always viewed my life in terms of success and winning and losing and failure. There never was grey area for me and it made me strive to be prefect and maybe that has been my massive downfall this year.

They all say being  first year teacher, is the hardest thing you ever do and boy are they right. I got hired the day before school started to be a middle school teacher and it changed my life in about 6 hours. I have been having some high high and low lows since day one.  The highs are seeing my classes complete two units and perform them so well. My downside is my classroom mangement skills are such not prefect and boy is that hard for me to cope with. I have been viewing my classroom management skills as needing to prefect and if they are not , like if my kids don’t listen or we don’t accomplish what I need them to or we have a rough day. I am a failure.

I have always been afarid of being a failure. Ever since I was in my own education and especially being in special education. Failure was something i was terrified of. I never waned to failed and would go out of my way to overachieve so nobody would even have me near that word. And not i am out of school and a teacher in my own right and even thought life is not black and white , I am still viewing it as black and white and viewing everything i do as less then prefect and as a failure.

 

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WWW: Enchantée

I have been hearing so many awesome things about this book and I really hope that i am able to read it when it comes out! It sounds awesome and I am intrigued!!

Cover!!

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Summary!!!!!!!!

Paris is a labyrinth of twisted streets filled with beggars and thieves, revolutionaries and magicians. Camille Durbonne is one of them. She wishes she weren’t…

When smallpox kills her parents, Camille must find a way to provide for her younger sister while managing her volatile brother. Relying on magic, Camille painstakingly transforms scraps of metal into money to buy food and medicine they need. But when the coins won’t hold their shape and her brother disappears with the family’s savings, Camille pursues a richer, more dangerous mark: the glittering court of Louis XVI and Marie Antoinette.

Using dark magic forbidden by her mother, Camille transforms herself into a baroness and is swept up into life at the Palace of Versailles, where aristocrats both fear and hunger for magic. As she struggles to reconcile her resentment of the rich with the allure of glamour and excess, Camille meets a handsome young inventor, and begins to believe that love and liberty may both be possible.

But magic has its costs, and soon Camille loses control of her secrets. And when revolution erupts, Camille must choose―love or loyalty, democracy or aristocracy, reality of magic―before Paris burns.

About the Author

  • Series: Enchantée (Book 1)
  • Hardcover: 464 pages
  • Publisher: Flatiron Books (February 5, 2019)

I am so excited for this book, I have been reading more historical fiction books and really hope to get to this book soon!

later book lovers!

Let me know if this book is on your winter TBR!!

 

TTT: Winter 2018 TBR

So I am def a reader that changes up the books she reads based on the season! Here are the top ten books that are on my winter TBR. It is mix between fantasy and books set in fantasy worlds and some middle grade!

  1. The Last Magician
  2. Hunting Prince Dracula
  3. Blood Leaf
  4. Warrior of the wild
  5. The Tiger at midnight
  6. The train to impossible places
  7. Check please (graphic novel)
  8. Wicked Saints
  9. Sherwood
  10. Evermore

Let me know in the comments what books are on your winter TBR!

Later book lovers!

What I am reading monday!!

I had a rather stressful week at work last week and got less reading done. But I hope to have a better reading week this week!

What I finished reading!

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I really enjoyed this middle grade adventure story. I really loved the harry potter vibes and also the world building. i am so excited to get too book 2 soon!

What I am currently reading!!

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I am really enjoying this NEW YA novel set in the buffy world So far i am really enjoying it!

What I want to read next!

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these are some holiday themed reads or new year themed reads, that i would love to tackle by the end of the year!

Let me know what you are reading today in the comments!

 

Snow In love: Holiday short story collection review:

Letters to the lost by Cruz, Stone, Friedman, West

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Published by Point on October 30, 2018

Genres: Young Adult, romance, holiday reads

Pages: 272

Format: paperback

Source: Personally bought

2018 challenge:

Buy on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Goodreads

I would give this book 3 for a review.

Summary!!!

What’s better than one deliciously cozy, swoon-worthy holiday story?

Four of them, from some of today’s bestselling authors.

From KASIE WEST, a snowy road trip takes an unexpected detour when secrets and crushes are revealed.

From AIMEE FRIEDMAN, a Hanukkah miracle may just happen when a Jewish girl working as a department store elf finds love.

From MELISSA DE LA CRUZ, Christmas Eve gets a plot twist when a high school couple exchange surprising presents.

From NIC STONE, a scavenger hunt amid the holiday crowds at an airport turns totally romantic.

So grab a mug of hot cocoa, snuggle up, and get ready to fall in love..

My Brief Thoughts:

I really loved this holiday themed short story collection. I found them to but such fun reads and I flew through them. These stories put me in the holiday spirt. I thought these stories were connected to stories types that are just fun to reed about like snow storm, a fun holiday job, holiday gifts suprise and scavenger hunt themed stories. I think my favorite story was Kassie west and Mellissa de la cruz. I also liked the various types of characters that were featured in this story. These stories put a smile on my face and i really rec. this holiday reading collection!

Story Favorites!!

  1. Kassie West
  2. Friedman
  3. Nic Stone
  4. Cruz

Let me know in the comments, If you read this collection what was your favorite story!!

 

 

 

Books I hope to find under my tree:

I have returned with this blog feature!! I really hope I spy some of these books under my tree so I can get a lot of reading done in 2019!!

Cover Reveal!!

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Summary!!

Girl in Pieces meets The Way I Used to Be in this poignant and thought-provoking novel about a girl who must overcome her survivor’s guilt after a fellow classmate is brutally murdered.

I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie–beautiful, saintly Jamie–was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed.

On the eve of Kyle’s sentencing a year after Jamie’s death, all the other “chosen ones” are coping in various ways. But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.

Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie’s boyfriend–knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what-ifs and why-nots. Is hope possible in the face of such violence? Is forgiveness? How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead?

Author Information:

  • Hardcover: 416 pages
  • Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers (November 13, 2018)

First Line Friday: Carols and Chaos by Cindy Anstey!!

So because we in the middle of holiday season!!! I am sharing my first line of my current read!!!

Cover!!

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Summary!!!

1817. The happy chaos of the Yuletide season has descended upon the country estate of Shackleford Park in full force, but lady’s maid Kate Darby barely has the time to notice. Between her household duties, caring for her ailing mother, and saving up money to someday own a dress shop, her hands are quite full. Matt Harlow is also rather busy. He’s performing double-duty, acting as valet for both of the Steeple brothers, two of the estate’s holiday guests.

Falling in love would be a disaster for either of them. But staving off their feelings for each other becomes the least of their problems when a devious counterfeiting scheme reaches the gates of Shackleford Park, and Kate and Matt are unwittingly swept up in the intrigue.

Full of sweetness, charm, and holiday mischief, Carols and Chaos―a standalone companion novel to Suitors and Sabotage―is perfect for readers who like their historical fiction with a side of romance and danger.

First Line Friday

Miss. Kate Darby of Shackleford park is scowled, and yet the recipient of her dark looks was not in the least intimated.

Let know in the comments how you feel about this first line, and if you want to check out this holiday read!!

later book lovers!!

 

Arc Tbr: The Tiger at Midnight

So this was another epic reads pick that I got at NYCC!! I really hope I get to read this book soon!!

Cover Reveal!!

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Summary!!!!!

The first book in an epic heart-pounding fantasy trilogy inspired by ancient Indian history and Hindu mythology, perfect for fans of Sabaa Tahir and Renée Ahdieh.

A broken bond. A dying land. A cat-and-mouse game that can only end in bloodshed.

Esha lost everything in the royal coup—and as the legendary rebel known as the Viper, she’s made the guilty pay. Now she’s been tasked with her most important mission to date: taking down the ruthless General Hotha.

Kunal has been a soldier since childhood. His uncle, the general, has ensured that Kunal never strays from the path—even as a part of Kunal longs to join the outside world, which has only been growing more volatile.

When Esha and Kunal’s paths cross one fated night, an impossible chain of events unfolds. Both the Viper and the soldier think they’re calling the shots, but they’re not the only players moving the pieces.

As the bonds that hold their land in order break down and the sins of the past meet the promise of a new future, both the soldier and the rebel must decide where their loyalties lie: with the lives they’ve killed to hold on to or with the love that’s made them dream of something more.

Author Information!!

Swati Teerdhala is a storyteller at heart. After graduating from the University of Virginia with a BS in finance and BA in history, she tumbled into the marketing side of the technology industry. She’s passionate about many things, including how to make a proper cup of tea, the right ratio of curd to crust in a lemon tart, and diverse representation in the stories we tell. The Tiger at Midnight is her debut novel. She currently lives in New York City. You can visit her online at http://www.swatiteerdhala.com.

Book Information

  • Series: Tiger at Midnight (Book 1)
  • Hardcover: 496 pages
  • Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books (April 23, 2019)

Let me know in the comments if this book is on your spring TBR!!

Later book lovers!!

 

 

WWW: Evermore!!!

I adored the first book and when I read it last year and I am dying to get my hands on book 2!!! I really loved book 1!

Cover!!!

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Summary!!!!!!

Jules Ember was raised hearing legends of the ancient magic of the wicked Alchemist and the good Sorceress. But she has just learned the truth: She is the Alchemist, and Caro—a woman who single-handedly murdered the Queen and Jules’s first love, Roan, in cold blood—is the Sorceress.

The whole kingdom believes that Jules is responsible for the murders, and a hefty bounty has been placed on her head. And Caro is intent on destroying Jules, who stole her heart twelve lifetimes ago. Now Jules must piece together the stories of her past lives to save the person who has captured her heart in this one.

Author Information!!

Sara Holland grew up between small-town Minnesota and the countless fictional worlds of books. She graduated from Wesleyan University and worked in a tea shop, a dentist’s office, and a state capitol building before heading to New York to work in publishing. These days, she can be found exploring the city’s bookstores or finding new ways to put caffeine in her bloodstream. Everless is her debut novel and is followed by Evermore. Visit her online at http://www.sarahollandwrites.com.

Book Information

  • Series: Everless
  • Hardcover: 368 pages
  • Publisher: HarperTeen (December 31, 2018)
  • Language: English

Let me know if you are excited for this book this month! I am so excited!!

later book lovers!!!!!!

 

Snow in Love (Short Story Collection)

Snow In Love  by Mellissa De La Cruz, Nic Stone,  Amiee Friedman, Kasie West.

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Published by Point on October 30, 2018

Genres: Young Adult, contemporary, holiday reads

Pages: 272

Format: paper back

Source: personally bought

2018 challenge:

Buy on AmazonBarnes & Noble, Goodreads

I would give this book 4 for a review.

Summary!!!

What’s better than one deliciously cozy, swoon-worthy holiday story?

Four of them, from some of today’s bestselling authors.

From KASIE WEST, a snowy road trip takes an unexpected detour when secrets and crushes are revealed.

From AIMEE FRIEDMAN, a Hanukkah miracle may just happen when a Jewish girl working as a department store elf finds love.

From MELISSA DE LA CRUZ, Christmas Eve gets a plot twist when a high school couple exchange surprising presents.

From NIC STONE, a scavenger hunt amid the holiday crowds at an airport turns totally romantic.

So grab a mug of hot cocoa, snuggle up, and get ready to fall in love…

Individual Stories:

West: Loved it!!!!! Such a fun read! 4.5

Cruz:  Adored it!!! Such a fun read 4

Freedman: 4  reads!

Stone: 4 stars

My Thoughts:

I really loved this holiday themed short story collection. I found them to but such fun reads and I flew through them. These stories put me in the holiday spirt. I thought these stories were connected to stories types that are just fun to reed about like snow storm, a fun holiday job, holiday gifts suprise and scavenger hunt themed stories. I think my favorite story was Kassie west and Mellissa de la cruz. I also liked the various types of characters that were featured in this story. These stories put a smile on my face and i really rec. this holiday reading collection!