First year of teaching…. thoughts, queries, freaking out, getting out of my own head!

So, I never do this and nobody may ever read this. But I am in my first year of teaching and lets say first of. I am a theater teacher. I have wanted to be one for so long. I have gone to school for past high school three degrees and may even go back in the future, cause I love to learn. However so much school and my history of being in special education has made me see view success and failure in very even terms. I have always been a perfectionist ever since I was in special education, I need everything to be prefect that i could control like english, social studies and all my other subjects. Because my performance in math was out of my hands and i never found success in it. Since then, I have always viewed my life in terms of success and winning and losing and failure. There never was grey area for me and it made me strive to be prefect and maybe that has been my massive downfall this year.

They all say being  first year teacher, is the hardest thing you ever do and boy are they right. I got hired the day before school started to be a middle school teacher and it changed my life in about 6 hours. I have been having some high high and low lows since day one.  The highs are seeing my classes complete two units and perform them so well. My downside is my classroom mangement skills are such not prefect and boy is that hard for me to cope with. I have been viewing my classroom management skills as needing to prefect and if they are not , like if my kids don’t listen or we don’t accomplish what I need them to or we have a rough day. I am a failure.

I have always been afarid of being a failure. Ever since I was in my own education and especially being in special education. Failure was something i was terrified of. I never waned to failed and would go out of my way to overachieve so nobody would even have me near that word. And not i am out of school and a teacher in my own right and even thought life is not black and white , I am still viewing it as black and white and viewing everything i do as less then prefect and as a failure.

 

WWW: Enchantée

I have been hearing so many awesome things about this book and I really hope that i am able to read it when it comes out! It sounds awesome and I am intrigued!!

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Summary!!!!!!!!

Paris is a labyrinth of twisted streets filled with beggars and thieves, revolutionaries and magicians. Camille Durbonne is one of them. She wishes she weren’t…

When smallpox kills her parents, Camille must find a way to provide for her younger sister while managing her volatile brother. Relying on magic, Camille painstakingly transforms scraps of metal into money to buy food and medicine they need. But when the coins won’t hold their shape and her brother disappears with the family’s savings, Camille pursues a richer, more dangerous mark: the glittering court of Louis XVI and Marie Antoinette.

Using dark magic forbidden by her mother, Camille transforms herself into a baroness and is swept up into life at the Palace of Versailles, where aristocrats both fear and hunger for magic. As she struggles to reconcile her resentment of the rich with the allure of glamour and excess, Camille meets a handsome young inventor, and begins to believe that love and liberty may both be possible.

But magic has its costs, and soon Camille loses control of her secrets. And when revolution erupts, Camille must choose―love or loyalty, democracy or aristocracy, reality of magic―before Paris burns.

About the Author

Born in Sweden to Indian and Swedish parents, Gita Trelease has lived in many places, including New York, Paris, and a tiny town in central Italy. She attended Yale College and New York University, where she earned a Ph.D. in British literature. Before becoming a novelist, she taught classes on writing and fairy tales. Along with her husband and son, Gita divides her time between a village in Massachusetts and the coast of Maine. Enchantée is her debut novel.

Book Information!!

• Series: Enchantée (Book 1)
• Hardcover: 464 pages
• Publisher: Flatiron Books (February 5, 2019)

I am so excited for this book, I have been reading more historical fiction books and really hope to get to this book soon!

later book lovers!

Let me know if this book is on your winter TBR!!